Wednesday, February 17, 2021

Lenten Ashes

 We prepare to pray not by composing our prayers but ourselves. (Eugene H. Peterson)


Ash Wednesday marks the beginning of Lent. Not everyone belongs to a tradition that recognizes or practices the discipline of Lent or the distribution of ashes, but that’s OK. Like most practices, all are welcomed to participate, but no one is required to. It’s all part and parcel of the “God is Love and God is Loving” Movement of the past half century. I’ll admit, I’ve never been part of the “God is going to fry you for XYZ” Brigade. 


I’m not sure punishment, or the fear of punishment was ever as big a deterrent as people think it is or should be.


I remember being a wee-young lad of probably three or four years of age. I found a leather riding crop up on the fireplace mantel. I had no idea what it was or what it was used for, so I managed to clamber up one way or another to retrieve it and asked my mother what it was. She said, “It’s a riding crop. You spank a horse with it to make it behave.”


Now, I’ll confess to the world here and now that I do not remember ever being hit, spanked, slapped, whipped, or physically assaulted by either of my parents at any time in my life. It’s not because I was an angel (although I’m sure I was as close as one could humanly be to such). They were simply not into punishment. I do remember looking at that riding crop with fresh eyes, however, and knew instinctively how it could be used and how it might feel on my tender behind, so I steered as clear of that bit of leather as if it was a rattler or red-hot iron.


I think we humans instinctively know right from wrong, for the most part. We know what will bring honor to one’s home or name, and what will bring dishonor and shame. Pretty much from the git-go we learn “NO!” for things that are harmful, dangerous, or out of bounds, and we reap praise for the things we do right – like the first time we stand up or walk without help, or say Momma, Pappa, or Rumplestiltskin. 


Ash Wednesday, like most special days in a Church Calendar, is a teaching tool. It reminds us we are mortal. We know that, of course. We all reach an age where, at some point, we realize we are now closer to the exit of life than the entry. There’s nothing wicked or evil about that. It’s all part and parcel of the circle of life. The purpose of the Day is simply to remind us our days are numbered, yes, but they are also in God’s hands. 


“Thou art dust, and to dust shalt thou return.” God created us from the primal elements. All of us. Not just we “special” ones. All of us. There is nothing wrong with dirt, dust, or ashes. Try growing flowers without dirt. Dirt – soil – is the stuff we’re made of. Carl Sagan reminds us we are made of the “stuff of stars!” A lump of coal is nothing but dead wood waiting for the heat and pressure sufficient to transform it into a diamond. Ash Wednesday reminds us we are precious stones in the hands of a Master Jeweler.


Lent is a season that invites us all to ponder where we are in life, to take stock and ask if we are doing all we can to make this world a better place (and by “this world” I mean our family, neighborhood, and community – and, indeed, ourselves). 


I have never subscribed to “worm theology” – the idea we are unloved or unlovable or in need of punishment and burial. That simply leads us to ignore the greatness of the God who put us here to take care of creation and one another. Lent reminds us the days are getting longer. The love of God is growing warmer. We know it because we can feel it, see it, and experience it.


God calls us to rise from the ashes, like the Phoenix – to bring hope and healing here in this, our valley, so let’s get dirty; Happy Lent!


Keith Axberg writes on matters concerning life and faith. Author of newly released: Who the Blazes is Jesus? Good News for a Vulgar World (available exclusively through Amazon in Print and e-book)


Wednesday, February 3, 2021

Prayer is Like a Boomerang

Do not drag me away with the wicked, with those who are workers of evil, who speak peace with their neighbors while mischief is in their hearts. (Psalm 28)


It is strange. I’ve never thought or worried about God “dragging me away with the wicked.” I’ve always assumed the wicked would be dragged away, of course. I’ve always assumed I would enjoy seeing “their” demise. It is always “they” who work evil; it is always “they” who speak peace out one side of their mouth while their hearts are plotting mischief of one sort or another.


That’s a pretty cynical view of life, though, isn’t it? I know I always want people to judge me by my intentions, which (by the way) are always gentle, noble, and kind. Right? And I want others to be judged by their actual deeds. I want you to look into my heart and see good, while I look at your actions and see mischief, evil, wickedness, and … You get the point.


I don’t know if the psalmist understood the irony of this psalm. He’s in trouble. He’s hurting. He’s beset by enemies; he prays to God for help, and also prays for God not to accidentally sweep him up with the wicked as they get whisked away into the dustbin of history. “Swing your battle axe swiftly and powerfully, but don’t get so carried away you forget I’m going to be in your line of fire at times” (if you’ll pardon the mix of metaphors).


I don’t think I have ever prayed for God to mow down my enemies. I’ve always thought of prayer as a sort of spiritual boomerang. You may have one target in mind as you throw it, but I’m a Card Carrying (and Life-time Member) of the Murphy’s Law Club. Those boomerangs tend to come back (unless having it come back is one’s intention, in which case it is my experience it won’t). I may “think” I want the heavy hand of judgment to fall on someone, but if it does, I suspect it will fall twice as hard on me for, you see, I’m not as pure as some of my poor readers may think I am.


I know. I know. You may feel I have veered off into science fiction, but it’s true. If you open up a can of worms, there is a good chance you’ll find I am squiggling around somewhere in it. I am neither bragging nor exercising false humility. I’m a human being; I know what I think; I know what I do; I know what I want; and it’s not always the best for me or for you.


So I don’t pray for God to come down on others. I prefer to pray the Golden Rule: “Do unto them, Lord, as I would want you to do unto me.” Why? Because judging the heart of another is above my paygrade. How do I know what’s in someone else’s heart? How can I know what they are going through? 


I know I have a very parochial view of life; I suspect all of us do. I’m one of the “good guys,” and everyone else is (naturally) on Inspector Clouseau’s list of evil-doers. But I also know my goodness is mixed in with other less-than-good stuff, thoughts, ideas, and actions. I know that trying to undo that mix is beyond my capacity. Whenever I try to untangle strands of spaghetti, I know I am going to end up with sauce on my clothes, face, glasses, and everywhere else. That is the nature of both spaghetti and spaghetti sauce. 


So it is important for me not to think of myself as better than I am, or others as worse than they are. Yes, there are some wicked people “out” there, but I suspect they are farther and fewer between than I would otherwise think. What’s important is to know that whatever we may be struggling with, it’s OK to be honest to God about it (like the psalmist), but once we get it off our chest, to let God be God and simply ask what sort of boomerang God would have us toss around here in this, our valley. As for me, I choose the Boomerang of Blessing.


Keith Axberg writes on matters concerning life and faith. Author of newly released: Who the Blazes is Jesus? Good News for a Vulgar World (available exclusively through Amazon in Print and e-book)